Exams are drawing nearer and nearer, and I'm becoming more lazy regardless. This past week has been quite hectic with all the random homework assignments, projects, unit tests the teachers keep piling on, NOW out of all times. I can't even seem to concentrate anymore.
It's a pet peeve when smart people say "I'm gonna fail" or "I think I failed that test" after writing one. When obviously, they haven't. I hate that with a passion because the thing about me is, failure is a possible outcome. It's not like I say "I think I failed that unit test" to enforce a joke, when I say those words, it really, honestly means that "I think I failed".
I wish I was smart, however immature and humorous that may sound, I really wish I was. I find it unbelievable how some people are just smart. No studying necessary, no review or homework completion to be done. Some people just "get it". Some people have that light bulb in their head that just stays on, like some everlasting LCD, forcing-my-eyes-to-squint light. Unfortunately, not all of us are as lucky as those few. Bastards.
Perhaps, this means I have to try harder, focus more and really be attentive in class. That in fact is what I should be doing, but I know it will never happen. I blame it on procrastination. I know I should be blaming myself but c'mon, procrastination is one evil ass. Even when I try to do my homework or attempt to study I just get side-tracked into doing something else. Maybe I'm just not used to studying and I'm just so accustom to avoiding it. Whatever the case may be, I must try to fix it.
Exams are in less than a week and I think I've reached rock bottom, or maybe a rock bottom with steel spikes and barbed-wire covered with itchy caterpillars crawling all over it. Maybe I should just think positive and believe I'll do fine, that's the first step to success right? But, it's just so hard because I've seen it. I've seen that 43% in reality. Failure isn't make believe in my world, but a possible outcome.
Wish me luck, no wait, wish me A's... actually just get me the answer keys.
3 comments:
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"It's a pet peeve when smart people say "I'm gonna fail" or "I think I failed that test" after writing one. When obviously, they haven't. I hate that with a passion because the thing about me is, failure is a possible outcome. It's not like I say "I think I failed that unit test" to enforce a joke, when I say those words, it really, honestly means that "I think I failed"."
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